Hello :)

It's 2013 already and it has been a while :)

Not really sure whether anybody is still reading this or not..oh well, i am :)

What's happening?

I am a lecturer now. Yep graduated with my PhD last year :). Alhamdulillah.

I gained 10 kg within a year in Malaysia

I am still searching for my life partner :)

I am still running :) and completed my 6th FM already

Hope the best in you as well.

Cheerios everyone :)

Razi

xo

Y2 D302 : Magic for weight loss

I just love this entry! 110% agree with what she said..to lose weight, its not easy..not as easy as wearing corset..eating magic diet pills, and those claims made by the MLM people..gosh..I wish they can understand the science behind losing weight..

Click to this link http://salam2benua.blogspot.com/2011/07/longwinded-entry-read-only-if-you-have.html

Simple rule : calories in = calories out

32 kg weight loss so far and almost free from Diabetes..I guess well done to me!

Y2 D270: Workout

Something that I've read everyday in my gym..

What is a workout?

A workout is 25 percent perspiration and 75 percent determination. Stated another way, it is one part physical exertion and three parts self-discipline. Doing it is easy once you get started.

A workout makes you better today than you were yesterday. It strengthens the body, relaxes the mind, and toughens the spirit. When you work out regularly, your problems diminish and your confidence grows.

A workout is a personal triumph over laziness and procrastination. It is the badge of a winner-- the mark of an organized, goal-oriented person who has taken charge of his, or her, destiny.

A workout is a wise use of time and an investment in excellence. It is a way of preparing for life's challenges and proving to yourself that you have what it takes to do what is necessary. 

A workout is a key that helps unlock the door to opportunity and success. Hidden within each of us is an extraordinary force. Physical and mental fitness are the triggers that can release it.

A workout is form of rebirth. When you finish a good workout, you don't simply feel better, YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF - George Allen

Hope everyone will enjoy workout as much as I do :)

Y1 D251 : New me :)

Hey guys..this is used to be me

 But now after losing 31 kg..i look like this..

Secret? Diet and Exercise :)

If I can reverse my type II diabetes, I'm sure I can handle my PhD..insyaAllah :)

Y2 D164: Random pics

Hey everyone!!

Been down with depression lately but seems that I'm alright now, much better :)

Jom layan pics

View in front of uni Adelaide

Teringin makan longan..tapi mahal gile!! sekg = 15 dollar = RM45.00 (9 bijik yang dibeli ni adalah 2.50 dollar = RM 7.50..huhu)

View from Torrens river

My work station :)

last but not least..songs to make me smile..haha..hope i can smile more after this :)

Y2 D159 : Stress management

Hey everyone!!

What's up? How was life? Mine was hectic..too many things to do at the moment..lab work, papers, abstract, data analysis..and the list will go on and on and on..feel a bit depressed and stress out yesterday..looking at the workload..I might need to apply for extension..sigh

Going to the gym is how I stress-free myself..doing kickbox, combat, attack and pump makes me stronger day by day..I noticed my stamina is better now :)

Anyway, hope I will finish this journey strong and with satisfaction. Gambate!!

Kan best kalu otak boleh rehat2 mcm nii..the beauty of doing nothing (Eat pray love 2010)

Y2 D150 : Weight issues

Hi everyone!!

Today just wanna share my opinion about how to lose weight. Weight issue is always a problem for me. I've never been a small kid since standard 1. Been bullied, teased, can't really join physical activity..yet I use my other advantage..to study smart and to learn how to play chess. In the end, I was very good with chess and my study..I've overcome my fear of being overweight.

In my secondary school, I was overweight as well..but because my dad was a teacher in the same school, I was safe from being bullied. Still, the fear of being myself is always there, low self esteem, low self confidence..name it..I have it all. How do I cope? I tend to study harder and do like a study group and additional class for my other friends. I've become a teacher for them and simplifying things is my strength. I can easily teach add maths and chemistry by using simpler examples and understand biology as I really like these subject. I've became best student in my school and was offered to do short term matriculation.

Matriculation and uni years? I'm still obese and overweight. But I know what is my strength now and people come to me asking me to teach them. I feel needed and important to my friends. But still, relationships is not working for me. The reason is I'm obese. I tend to chat a lot in mIRC, go for blind dates and still I can't get the right person to love me for who I am. Pity me I guess.

Masters? I was doing my masters and finally got a job in UKM. Initially, I've got offer from USM Kubang Kerian as well but UKM seems to be a better place for me at that time. To get a job, it's not easy..people always asked to me lose weight. Well, I'm not applying for stewardess or admin job, I was applying for Reseacrh Officer. Sigh. The interviewers do not see my brain at that time and I feel so depressed, ashamed with myself. Lucky that applying for tutor was much better option for me. They look for my results and my brain, which are my strength at the moment.

I finished my masters and went to Adelaide in 2008. Still being obese, I was diagnosed with Diabetes type II in July 2010. Since my mum and dad got the same disease, genetic do play a role here and worst thing is being overweight. Went back home for Raya in October 2010 and looking at my mum having to take 10 tablets per day for her diabetic treatment and my dad who was dealing with his cataract, I promise to myself, I will fight my disease.

Since November 2010, I joined a ladies gym here in Adelaide and since then my life changed. I hired a Personal Trainer and she actually did a good job by nagging me almost every week, checked my food diary and assessed my fitness level. I began to like exercise and I hope I won't turn back to what I am before. Past is past. We learned form the past and prepare for the future. After 2 months intensive training in the gym, I've lost 10 kg. No need to wear any corset, any magic juice, any special medication (I'm a bit skeptical with all these things). To lose weight, the rules are simple; eat less, train hard!!. My blood glucose also is normal now..Yeay!! So people, do support me in my weight loss journey..and yes, if I have put my aim, I'll be so determined to finish it strong. 

Conclusion of the story, It's not easy to deal with weight issue, it's harder to lose weight..however, it's not something impossible. But, you will need a good support system. Rule of thumb, do tell your friend that you're serious about this and ask for their support.

Till then, support me yea!! XOXO

Y2 D143 : Hello 2011

Hi all!!

How was life? Mine was good..trying to cope with the weather..arggh..I hate summer..hope this will be my last summer here *winks*

Just got back from Melbourne for Boxing day trip..watched New Year fireworks over the beach and celebrated new year with food invention - pau, keropok lekor, choc chip cookies, mee hailam, ayam lada hitam, nasi kacang pis..now that's what we call as food for life..haha

Anyway, hope I can achieve my new year resolution - finish my PhD strong, serious with the gym and enjoy life as much as I can, and of course be a good servant for HIM (tingkatkan amalan baca Quran..haishh..peringatan utk diri sendiri ni)

2010? Not too bad..like a roller coaster ride..full of ups and downs..well, that's what we call life. Hope 2011 will be a better year for me..InsyaAllah :)

Enjoy the pics..

 @ St Kilda, Melbourne

 @ Great Ocean Road, Melbourne

 @ 12 apostles, Melbourne

 Boxing day - Corelle, Visions (not all mine)

 @ Warnambool, Melbourne

 @ Great Ocean Road

@ St Kilda, Melbourne

2011 ~ bring it on!!

Y2 D132 : End of December

Hi everyone!!

Gosh..it's already end of December and here I am, still alive in Adelaide :)

How was life? Mine was so and so..not too bad :)

2010 has been a good year for me..ada part depress, ada part sedih, but ada juga part gembira..

Starting off with conducting my human study, been busy in the lab..decision making, meetings every week..at the beginning, i was so tired with the routine..waking up early in the morning and finished late at midnight. In the end, its all worth it :)

Publications? I've got a paper accepted..weeeeee :) :)..Second paper will be out soon and third paper still in draft..hope I can do my thesis by publication :)

Seminar? Not much this year..presented my poster @ local seminars..maybe next year I'll go for international seminar..perhaps because I was so busy with my human study this year..can't find the time to go (excuses :P)

Social life? Well, how do I begin? Somehow, in life..there will be a turning point..I'm enjoying myself in the gym now. Moved house..started new lifestyle (more healthy and physically fit lifestyle)..started to climb hills and water falls here in Adelaide and even in Canberra..will start to jog as well.. Give me one year to change!! I have a mission to be accomplished..so do support me this time :)

In terms of relationship? hmmm..it's always hard with this part..shall I say, let it be? We will see how it goes..Enough to say, I'm enjoying my single adulthood life here :)..that doesn't mean that I don't want a family..well..we'll see :)

What else? Enough of me? Let's just enjoy the picture. I do hope everyone will enjoy their 2010. Another 8 days to go!!

Cherry picking

Civic centre @ Canberra

Scenic Dam @ Canberra

On the way climbing Black Mountain @ Canberra

Telstra tower @ Black Mountain, Canberra

Miniature Garden @ Canberra

Parliament house @ Canberra

Wall of honor @ war memorial, Canberra

View from war memorial, canberra

Till then, take care!! 

xoxo

Y2 D95 : Selamat Hari Raya Eiduladha

I'm not sure whether anybody is still reading this blog or not..after a loong silence :). Been busy nowadays (sokmo sibuk kan)..x pernahnya tak sibuk..

Bak kata Fakirfikir..cerita raya di Adelaide masih sama..tiada yang berbeza..aku? solat raya pun tertinggal sebab ada eksperimen yang mula jam 630 am-1 pm :(..haihh..sayu je rasa hati..

Esok pula kena interrogate pasal kes tumpahan acetonitrile last month..sigh..berdebar rasanya :(..harap tak kena tindakan apa2 :(

That's all for a quick update..selamat hari raya kawan2!!

ohh..berita yang mengejutkan..kes skandal uncle seekers and Ex Queen - Aishah..sungguh kontroversi..go to this link 

Y2 D 74 : Busy writing

Alhamdulillah, final phase of my PhD now..need to do some more lab work and I'm done. I know what to do..I know what to write..just have to focus.

Hope I can achieve what I'm aiming for .. to finish strong!! :) InsyaAllah..

Y2 D50 : Sharing my thought

Hi everyone!!

I'm doing thesis and paper writing at the moment..need to publish at least 2 more papers to secure my thesis. Doing thesis writing is hard but to know that a few has failed to complete their PhD is harder. I am so worried with myself, expectations are high, hope I can prove something in my thesis, something novel.

In the midst of doing this boring process, I accidentally found TeacherShida on you tube. Haihh..what a teacher. My dad used to be a teacher, and now my brother continued the legacy. Myself and second brother also doing teaching as well. We are in the same line basically. Being a teacher is the most respectful job and a noble thing to do. My humble opinion thinks that this you tube thing is too much. Dancing, singing, miming..and the whole world can view that. I wonder what she is trying to prove. Despite that, I respect her for having a very high level of confidence and being sporting but..I dunno..everyone has different opinion and views on this.

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My brother always have problem in English writing and often asked me how to write in a good English. I guessed the best answer is to start writing without worrying about the grammar. Read a lot and see how the author throw their ideas, it would help..trust me.

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Started to feel dizzy and cold. Fever again..sigh..

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I missed having intellectual discussion with AR. Gosh..Finish your exam quickly!!then we can discuss about mind reading :)

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My FB wall is full with all the warm wishes and dua'..thanks a bunch..:)

Y2 D49 : Happy Birthday to me

Now..no more sadness, no more gloomy days..inah is back to conquer the lab..sigh..so many things to do if i want to finish on time..it's ok..i'll try my hardest :)

Life is here is not that bad now..spring is here. End of daylight saving begins this Sunday..no more 1 hour and a half difference, it will be 2 hours and a half..

What's more..ohh..It's my birthday (011010..nice number)..thought wanna celebrate or watch movies but unfortunately I'll have meetings at two different place today..heh..student's life..what do u expect :)

Anyway, happy birthday to me..hope I'll become a better person day by day..have a blessed life ahead of me..InsyaAllah :)

Y2 D42 : Familiar faces

Hey all,

I'm missing some of these familiar faces..

Humaira' - my first niece

Mum and Dad

Brothers

Best friends

Little Khadijah :)

It's really obvious if I'm depress..staring blankly when watching TV is not a good sign..please..let it be the last day that I'm depress..Dear me, please let it go..move on..continue with life.

Y2 D41 : Early birthday wish

Birthday is next week..labmates already asked me what do I want..they really want to give something for me..

I want..I want..I want...

My PhD to be smooth sailing..so do u wanna help to write up my thesis?

Next thing in my mind is..

something practical..something that I can use..hmmm..movie ticket for eat, pray, love perhaps :)..naaah..i hope for wellness and great life and a good companion as well..

My ex-boss is in this vid clip..

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Owh..I'm feeling a bit tired..manage to do open house today..housemate and me cooked mee bandung, masak lemak cili padi ayam, sambal belacan, ulaman, kek batik and penat cantas2 rumput, garden etc etc..

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Sometimes I do feel a bit awkward to tell everything in this blog..like arguments with mum, my love and hate relationship with sv, my love story, my loneliness, my sorrow..sigh..thought of privatising this blog tonight..just because i want to let everything out..but i promise to myself..this blog will be my PhD diary..what did I do in the past, what did I accomplish, what happened in Adelaide etc etc..

So here I am..being hypocrit..I am feeling a bit sad today but need to keep holding on..

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Feels wanna scream out loud..or send a message in a bottle..yeap..maybe i'll do that tomorrow..go to the nearest sea and write up my problem, put it in a bottle and let it away..

Y2 D39 : Will you?

Someone did asked me today..

Will you......................

I haven't reply anything..deep down I'll say yes but I need to confirm my decision first..istikharah it is..God please help me with this big decision.

:)

Y2 D32 : Hari raya ke 5

Hi everyone!!

Today I spent my day at Faculty..gosh I didn't realized how much I missed teaching, evaluating students etc etc..met with my boss, my big boss and of course my two best friends (CK and EL).

My big boss challenged me to finish on time and said that he published 9 papers for his PhD. I said, I can do 5 probably within 3 years and 6 months. He asked me to do 3 and finish within 3 years. I said ok!!..WTH!! I said OK!! Perhaps I can actually do it if I focus and keep up my motivation :).

Just realized something..banyaknyaaaaaaaaaa cerita hantu in TV..i wonder why..rancangan Tv for raya is for whole family right?? Why there are so many ghost stories?? Susuk, Histeria, Congkak, Jangan Pandang Belakang, Sundel Bolong etc etc..OMG..please choose a better TV program for the whole family..

Another 4 days to go..tight schedule ahead of me :)..

Cendol-checked

Satay AU5 - checked

Keropok-checked

Keropok lekor - mana nak carik time raya ni..sigh :(

ABC-checked

Bakso-checked

Mee goreng mamak - checked

Ayam penyet - ok..need to go to either Wangsa walk or Wong Solo

Nasi lemak sambal kerang - sigh..mana penjual nasi lemak niii..x balik lagi ke....

And the list will go on and on and on..Till then..take care everyone :)

Y2 D28 : Eid Mubarak

Hi everyone!!

Perjalanan balik was really tiring..flight from Adelaide to Perth and Perth to KL. We managed to go to several places in Perth..King's Park, Swan bell, Harbour town, Fremantle..overall? Perth is so and so for me..just like Adelaide..nothing much to see and do. Well, I might be bias here just because I spent only one day in Perth. Perhaps, others will like Perth. So..Melbourne (checked), Sydney (checked), Adelaide (checked), Perth (checked), Tasmania (checked), New Zealand (checked)..hope that I can go to Brisbane and Gold Coast before I leave Adelaide.

How was life? Mine was so and so..fun but i'm down with flu..wth..raya2 pulak demam..aiseh :)..just got back from my aunt's house and asked her to find me someone..My mum also started to introduce me with her friend's son..me? I have someone in mind..but I'm not sure whether he is really serious with me or not..I guess when the time comes, we will know..right? but I do know that I think I'm so ready to get married and settle down by next year :)..Lots of major plan next year..we'll see how it goes :)..my best friend also getting married..OMG..I guess I have to miss her wedding in January 2011.

Oh yes..I have another major aim by next year..I want to challenge myself to do something..perhaps it is for my own good :)..

We'll see..it's always good to know that you are surrounded by people who loved you..thanks to all that enlightened my day :)

Another 8 days to go to rejuvenate myself...errrr..I should write a review paper actually..I guess that can be done when I'm in Adelaide :P

Plan for tomorrow?


Low yat..Sg Wang, Times Square..here we come!! :)




Ohh..before that..eid mubarak everyone!! Pics will be uploaded when I'm back in Adelaide..I have to struggle to get used to slower internet connection here..sigh..

Y2 D18 : Balik kampung

Hi everyone!!

Glenelg revisited :)

How was puasa? Sure best kan..tiap hari baca blog orang lain..tgk ape yang depa makan..sabaq je lahh..bagi budak2 di perantauan..surely kitorg makan benda2 biasa je..org kata..cukup sekadar memenuhi syarat..kalau2 mengidam nak makan..bolehla try2 buat sendiri..itupun entahkan jadi..entahkan tidak :)

 

Gambar dapur rumah :)

 

 Kuih lopes in the making :)

Sedar tak sedar..lagi 2 hari untuk flight ke Malaysia..tanah tumpah darah yang dikenang..sudah 2 tahun juga x berjumpa dengan abang2..x sabar rasanya untuk menjejak kaki ke bumi Malaysia..

Packing? alhamdulillah sudah..biasanya bila budak2 di perantauan balik..secara automatik akan bertukar watak sebagai Santa Claus pulak..memberi hadiah kepada keluarga, saudara dan kawan2..beg semakin berat..risau pulak ada drama di airport nanti :)..harap selamat semuanya :)

Glenelg lagi :)

Balik kali ni..hanya 15 hari..tapi cukuplah untuk merasai kemeriahan aidilfitri di Malaysia..tadi selesai mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada kawan2 seperjuangan di makmal..mereka semua mengucapkan selamat tinggal dan semoga berjumpa lagi..jelas mereka akan merindui kelibat diri ini yang selalu berada pada awal pagi dan usai kerja makmal lewat malam..

Seorang kawan di sini bertanya..apa perkara pertama yang saya akan lakukan apabila sampai di Malaysia..saya terfikir..mungkin saya akan bersalam2 dgn ibu bapa..jika tidak puasa..boley juga menikmati KFC di airport :P..tapi takpelah..bulan puasa..kena bertahan sedikit :)

Puasa sudah masuk ke fasa terakhir..ayuh..giatkan usaha untuk mendapat kelebihan dan keberkatan bulan yang mulia ini :)..panjang pula membebel di sini..bukan apa..sudah lama rasanya tidak menulis dalam bahasa Melayu..terlalu banyak perkataan bahasa Inggeris digunakan sehingga terpaksa memerah otak untuk mencari perkataan bahasa Melayu yang sesuai :)

Jika ada kesempatan, akan saya update lagi blog ini..esok akan ke Adelaide Showground, pagi Sabtu akan bertolak ke Perth dan Ahad akan ke Malaysia..doakan saya dan kawan2 selamat sampai..

Sehingga bertemu lagi..

Assalamualaikum :)

Y2 D1 : :(

Sometimes it's always hard to please everyone..it's always hard to trust anyone, it's always hard to be hurt by your loved ones..

:(

Is it a test for me? Or something to ponder..I guess I'm always bad in friendship..

Bought flight ticket already..hope I can rejuvenate myself for 20 days in my hometown..